11 more hours plus to my bday=)

first time in my life my sis didnt celebrate wit mi.

hmmm.

feel so sad.

will be my best present if she would.

babii ask mi what i wan

i don need anithing from anibodi this yr.

cos 18 bday i reali don even intend to celebrate without my sis.

haix.

but is okie.

iko, shin, jayda, jacky, babii is celebratin for mi.

jus wan all of my gd frenx and family to be happi.

babii too.

all i can do now is to think hard about my own future.

babii tml bringin to the drivin centre=)

book my theory.

okie la.

blog tml ba.

xuemin

everybodi slpin.

but i am the onli one that is awake ba.

hmmm.

donnoe why niehx.

cant slp.

jus finish playin audi.

eyes veri tired.

babii and mi slept in my hse today.

he olso jus fall aslp.

poor babii, he has been rollin here and there.

shouldnt allow him to come even he insisted.

hmmm

bday not celebratin alreadi.

my last few bday was quite unhappi and tiring.

but for this yr.

i jus wan it to be relaxin and happi.

wit babii around.

18 yrs alreadi.

alot of thing i gotto learn again.

but i noe.

everything will be better for mi de.

goin to mi and babii 4 months ler.

gonna break his record of 4 months relationship.

i jus wanna keep him by myside forever.

no matter what is goin to happen or change.

babii i love u.

gd nite to everybodi.

my babii especailly.

sorry.

make u cant slp well either.

xuemin

last 2 days. something unfortunate happen to mi.

haix.

i don mean to lost it.

what should i react?

damn sad now.

i told babii.

and he was like.

i thought u don wanna have it and u are sad?

hmmm.

i am still a human.

and worst thing is.

i didnt even noe it exist and i lost it.

went out wit jayda ystd.

but was not in my mood at all.

jayda understand ba.

hmmm.

at nite went to hilltop. babii send mi and jayda up after our dinner tgt.

he got his new job which don have much time for mi.

but i understand.

he is tired almost every nite.

hmmm.

i went to drink when i cant.

but i was reali upset.

and steph came and tell mi ystd.

"did u noe who is joshua new gf"

i told her i know is a staff from hilltop.

but what does this concern mi animore.

everybodi up there was like.

"u and the who not tgt alreadi arhx"

lolx.

why not u all go ask him?

i am leadin a better life wit babii now.

and all my heart are wit my babii.

i belong to poh junde!

stop askin mi this nonesence.

when i was back home ystd.

babii didnt noe i was cryin.

what to do.

i couldnt slp the whole nite.

and i still woke babii up from slp.

sorri babiii.

i wanna say sorri alot.

i lose it.

slept at six but woke up and cant slp.

babii don seems to mind at all.

and he ask mi to treat it as a passerby.

how can i?

haix.

okie la.

goin back home ler.

at babii hse nth to do.

xuemin

mi and babii is okie again.

i am sorry that i have mention to leave u.

iko was rite.

every relationship goes through up and downs.

so even i were to leave u and be wit another guy in the future,

i will still go through the same thing.

nobodi can noe u better then mi.

nobodi can make my smile the way u do.

nobodi has ever been so close to mi like u do.

and i have neber thought of gettin married to anione in my life and

even wanna jus give u a child so much as u wanted too.

i wan to be wit u for the rest of my life.

today is our 3 months.

i am glad i met u shortly after a broken relationship of mine.

i told u before.

i will not do anithing to lose u.

i mean it babii.

but i am reali sorry.

my temper was bad.

my attitude was worst for this 1 month.

due to my work.

but everything gonna be over.

reali thx babii for bearing all this.

we both change alot.

since the start.

but i promise u.

my heart will not change it direction away from u.

becos it jus feel so comfortable and warm.

everything take two hands to clap.

so we will work hard tgt rite?

xuemin.bibii