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pls do take of the necklack.
i miss u alot
love u=)
xuemin
take mi away
Sunday, July 26--10:35:00 PMY
the very first post in my blog is started becos of my baby daddy.
when we was tgt, honeymoon period till when we both stop workin, and when we discover that i am pregnant, unhappi agurement and broke up.
and till now.
is to put an end to this blog lerx.
i don wanna mention anithing else except baby daddy.
in a particular day in nov 2008.
thx to iko and wj i met baby daddy.
that veri first time i saw him.
he was wearin a white blouse and a black skinny jeans wit a pointed tip shoe.
that time he is not that attractive for mi to be impress thou he wore smartly.
but i was still sad over a broken relationship wit a guy that was actualli 11 yrs older then mi, and was a married guy till he divorce wit his wife and finally being tgt wit mi.
we had our veri first meal in pizza hut in cwp.
and went to civic centre for party world.
all i could rmb was he was usin his phone all while.
sitting rite opposite mi and singin alot of jay songs.
of course our first duet song was, 传说。
we didnt talk much that nite but till when we was both left alone cos wj and iko jus gotto walk back to iko hse which is jus across the road.
i actualli wanted to take bus home myself.
but he insist on sendin mi home cos is abit late lerx.
he sended mi to my lift and left home.
although we don have each other contact number, but we manage to have met the second time.
which is planned.
i don realli noe it at first but thx to wj for tellin mi this secret.
baby daddy wanna ask them to meet mi out somewhere=)
lolx.
then they actualli planned to head to mustufa and baby daddy that time was a gambler of soccer!
and he was late cos he was watchin soccer!
but ended up we went to bishun for prawnin.
i didnt reali noe how to prawn cos my "first time"
hahax.
be say he will teach mi. but ended up was watchin soccer!
heard from his frenx that he was abit unhappi cos i was happi chattin wit kl!
but i did go up to him okie!
cos i pass him a can of coke.
daddy rmb ma?
lolx.
and that is when he started to walk back to our groups and join in.
maybe cos soccer over ler ba.
but i was reali happi on that day cos i rmb i was the onli one who manage to prawn alot of prawns.
lolx.
they was all sayin that the prawns are all males.
lolx.
but all the way till 4 or 5am.
and can see that daddy is reali tired.
on that day, the one drivin wasnt him la.
so okie lor.
but same thing, he sended mi back under my blk to my lift.
sweet horx=)
of course, we still no have each other number.
but on that day i was attracted by him lerx.
cos his smile. i seriously in love wit guys wit very deep dimples.
and he has it.
and on the 7th of dec 2008!
hahax.
i was off on that day and was damn borin.
asked iko and wj out.
but at first was busy findin frenx to acc mi.
cos for movie olso not alone wit a couple ba.
but end up iko asked mi not to find.
she say ask junde can lerx.
that was the first time i had his number.
but i didnt contact him first la.
cos i rmb wentin cwp courts wit mum to get my lappi, my itouch, queend size bed for my parent, new washin machine and a innov8=)
we was abit rushin time, but he was gd to come down cwp to pick mi up=)
at first in the car we was both quite quiet ba.
but manage to talk about his family and my family stuff.
hahax.
and i guess that is when we become closer ba=)
we watched "the bolt"
and was enjoyable.
and before the movie wj and him was actualli playin wit the machine to pick up soft toys.
lolx.
cute lorx.
is around 1 plus after we finish watchin.
and we headed to upper seletar there de HANS to eat ba.
hahax.
then same thing.
he sended mi home=)
and under my blk.
when i reach home i send him an sms sayin thx for sendin mi back.
and is where our smses start.
i think we chatted till 2am plus and was rainin.
hahx.
he was still watchin his soccer!
and cos i still don wanna go to bed.
he was quite worri that i might not slp.
so came to pick mi up to his hse.
hahax.
but ehx!
we didnt do anithing okie!
hahax.
he let mi have his bed all by myself.
and his boster.
but he jus have his precious blanket!
hahx.
he slept at his bed chair.
but all the way till 8 am plus.
i think he was awake lerx.
when i open my eyes.
he was switchin on his mum lappi.
lolx.
and i was still lyi on his bed watchin him.
didnt talk much till we watched hot shot tgt.
hahax.
but realise that we could agure alot worx.
all the way till 12 pm plus.
i guess both was tired again.
and headed to bed to slp.
and this time round he was slpin beside mi.
did nth too but i reali do like lookin at him since then.
daddy, did i tell u this?
think no ba.
hahax.
we woke up around 2 plus and was lyin on bed side by side chatin about our relationship=)
and watch tv.
okie. that is the part.
ended up holdin hands ler=)
i didnt reali feel that we were tgt ba.
hahax.
but after we went to eat around 5pm.
he send mi home.
i was sittin infront of my com, not thinkin about him.
but my ex bf.
omg!
daddy! don scold mi horx.
but he was the one sendin mi sms when he reaches home.
ask mi why i didnt sms him.
hahax.
and is then i noe. we were tgt.
and on the 10th was the first day he met my mum, on the 9th is the first day i saw his sis.
cos went his hse eat his sis curry chicken.
lolx!
see! my memorise gd horx.
hahax.
and for the 1st month, second month, and third months was all honeymoon period.
i stayed at his hse more.
i guess 3 or 4 times a week to 6 days aweek till everyday a week.
lolx.
but of course.
he pick mi up from sembawang mrt station after my work and head back my hse for dinner everynite.
sweet horx.
everybody veri envy worx.
and problems started to come when one day he gave mi attitude and say i tied him by myside.
if i am not wrong, aweek before my bday.
but i finally left his side and went back home stay to repaint my room.
and that time both of us are not workin ler=)
hahax.
and i was quite sick that time.
cos is the period when i'm pregnant but didnt noe=)
lolx.
and my bday came.
had a fun nite in hilltop.
babii was the one footin the bill.
so nice thou we was not workin.
and he was drunk on that nite worx!
hahax.
and then afew days later we had a big quarrel again till i wanted to break up wit him.
i think this was the sec big fights we have.
the first was when i went back my hse to stay myself
and he didnt reali care much about mi.
went up to his hse and wanted to collect my stuff back.
and is the first time i saw his tears.
and gave him a big hug thou.
end up okie lerx lorx.
hahax.
he gave mi a promise that he wanted mi to be his forever that nite and i guess is the time where i am suppose to have my da yi ma! hahax.
not yet la.
and i guess is that nite that our baby is created ba.
hahax.
cos of his promise. i foolishly agreed.
and is not his forever, is mine forever ruin.
we didnt reali have agurement at first when he noes i am pregnant.
was still so sweet to mi and infact he came to my hse to stay wit mi insted of i goin over.
i love him alot.
and agurement starts where i wanted to tell his parent about baby.
cos what i was thinkin was, even if i wanna go for an abortion, his parent have the right to noe their grand children was here by our side before.
since that nite.
i lost him.
not completely.
but mostly.
he lied to mi alot after that.
till now i still didnt wanna mention it to him that i knew it lerx.
made mi wait at his hse for him till nite and come home to put mi in the cold corners.
but i have decided to end our relationship on 20 may 2009.
i stayed at his hse for 3 days till 20th.
and we stopped contactin lerx.
for more then a month.
and is onli once we met outside a yishun safra.
but totally like strangers.
i lied to him then about abortion.
but onli he didnt noe the turth of i wanna to have this baby alone.
his parent helped mi alot too.
and he was totally in his own world.
when i have to eat all sort of medicine.
and even protected him from being scolded by his and my parents.
cos afterall i did tell them, i wanted this baby all by myself.
his mum wanted mi to let him noe the truth and i did.
and slowly our relationship was back to now.
baby becomes our common topics.
he did thx mi for not hatin him.
and apologise alot for what he has done to mi.
i don mind cos i understand he jus cant accept everything in within a few months.
everything happen so fast.
but i swear that my love for him till now wasnt about baby.
i jus love him so much.
a few post earlier.
i have mention i wanna put an end to everything.
and yes, after today i stepped out of his hse.
thou i cried when i hug him jus now in the afternoon.
and i let him talk to baby princess.
smilin and playin wit him.
i actualli wanna tell him i love him.
but afterall i am aware that i am only a toy to him.
no matter how u were to treat mi.
i still love u no matter what.
is so difficult.
so difficult even to think i am soon gonna leave u like strangers.
baby is never our onli topic.
but is the main topic that agurement recently we had.
daddy, i love u.
we both knew that we couldnt be back to what we are before lerx.
but thx for stayin by myside thou.
i noe u didnt wan mi to stay by myside alone so far from home.
but is some where i feel that i could forget u easier.
i will miss u alot.
miss ur smell, miss huggin u.
miss ur smile.
miss u every single thing.
but i am sorry, this time i give up lerx.
this is the end of my blog lerx.
it started off wit u and i will end it wit u too.
thou i couldnt bear.
but is the best way to let us both free from this lock.
today i wanna use the key that onli u have to open up my heart lock.
to let u free out from now on.
thou our promise for 100 yrs,
i needa learn from now on to live without u.
when baby is out baby will still spend time wit u.
but not mi animore.
the happiest part of my life is when i have u by myside.
the best gift i ever receive is u and baby.
daddy, i reali don like to say but gd bye.
so actualli i am movin to bryan apartment in pasir ris on tuesday.
and tml prince will be helpin to move my stuff over to unpack for mi lerx.
i am goin out lerx.
to prince pub.
i noe i will meet sam.
is time i should face him ler ba.
derrick goin back london tml.
and i will be all alone from tuesday on.
frenx meetin mi is abit difficult.
but prince is is willing to be my driver!
hahax.
5 room flat, and i alone.
hahax.
bryan mum say she will ask her maid to go up to help mi do washin every 2 days.
so nice of her.
hao ba.
i may create another new blog soon.
but onli to closer frenx.
let u all noe ba=)
ilu daddy, pls takkaire lots.
baby love u too=)
xuemin
when we was tgt, honeymoon period till when we both stop workin, and when we discover that i am pregnant, unhappi agurement and broke up.
and till now.
is to put an end to this blog lerx.
i don wanna mention anithing else except baby daddy.
in a particular day in nov 2008.
thx to iko and wj i met baby daddy.
that veri first time i saw him.
he was wearin a white blouse and a black skinny jeans wit a pointed tip shoe.
that time he is not that attractive for mi to be impress thou he wore smartly.
but i was still sad over a broken relationship wit a guy that was actualli 11 yrs older then mi, and was a married guy till he divorce wit his wife and finally being tgt wit mi.
we had our veri first meal in pizza hut in cwp.
and went to civic centre for party world.
all i could rmb was he was usin his phone all while.
sitting rite opposite mi and singin alot of jay songs.
of course our first duet song was, 传说。
we didnt talk much that nite but till when we was both left alone cos wj and iko jus gotto walk back to iko hse which is jus across the road.
i actualli wanted to take bus home myself.
but he insist on sendin mi home cos is abit late lerx.
he sended mi to my lift and left home.
although we don have each other contact number, but we manage to have met the second time.
which is planned.
i don realli noe it at first but thx to wj for tellin mi this secret.
baby daddy wanna ask them to meet mi out somewhere=)
lolx.
then they actualli planned to head to mustufa and baby daddy that time was a gambler of soccer!
and he was late cos he was watchin soccer!
but ended up we went to bishun for prawnin.
i didnt reali noe how to prawn cos my "first time"
hahax.
be say he will teach mi. but ended up was watchin soccer!
heard from his frenx that he was abit unhappi cos i was happi chattin wit kl!
but i did go up to him okie!
cos i pass him a can of coke.
daddy rmb ma?
lolx.
and that is when he started to walk back to our groups and join in.
maybe cos soccer over ler ba.
but i was reali happi on that day cos i rmb i was the onli one who manage to prawn alot of prawns.
lolx.
they was all sayin that the prawns are all males.
lolx.
but all the way till 4 or 5am.
and can see that daddy is reali tired.
on that day, the one drivin wasnt him la.
so okie lor.
but same thing, he sended mi back under my blk to my lift.
sweet horx=)
of course, we still no have each other number.
but on that day i was attracted by him lerx.
cos his smile. i seriously in love wit guys wit very deep dimples.
and he has it.
and on the 7th of dec 2008!
hahax.
i was off on that day and was damn borin.
asked iko and wj out.
but at first was busy findin frenx to acc mi.
cos for movie olso not alone wit a couple ba.
but end up iko asked mi not to find.
she say ask junde can lerx.
that was the first time i had his number.
but i didnt contact him first la.
cos i rmb wentin cwp courts wit mum to get my lappi, my itouch, queend size bed for my parent, new washin machine and a innov8=)
we was abit rushin time, but he was gd to come down cwp to pick mi up=)
at first in the car we was both quite quiet ba.
but manage to talk about his family and my family stuff.
hahax.
and i guess that is when we become closer ba=)
we watched "the bolt"
and was enjoyable.
and before the movie wj and him was actualli playin wit the machine to pick up soft toys.
lolx.
cute lorx.
is around 1 plus after we finish watchin.
and we headed to upper seletar there de HANS to eat ba.
hahax.
then same thing.
he sended mi home=)
and under my blk.
when i reach home i send him an sms sayin thx for sendin mi back.
and is where our smses start.
i think we chatted till 2am plus and was rainin.
hahx.
he was still watchin his soccer!
and cos i still don wanna go to bed.
he was quite worri that i might not slp.
so came to pick mi up to his hse.
hahax.
but ehx!
we didnt do anithing okie!
hahax.
he let mi have his bed all by myself.
and his boster.
but he jus have his precious blanket!
hahx.
he slept at his bed chair.
but all the way till 8 am plus.
i think he was awake lerx.
when i open my eyes.
he was switchin on his mum lappi.
lolx.
and i was still lyi on his bed watchin him.
didnt talk much till we watched hot shot tgt.
hahax.
but realise that we could agure alot worx.
all the way till 12 pm plus.
i guess both was tired again.
and headed to bed to slp.
and this time round he was slpin beside mi.
did nth too but i reali do like lookin at him since then.
daddy, did i tell u this?
think no ba.
hahax.
we woke up around 2 plus and was lyin on bed side by side chatin about our relationship=)
and watch tv.
okie. that is the part.
ended up holdin hands ler=)
i didnt reali feel that we were tgt ba.
hahax.
but after we went to eat around 5pm.
he send mi home.
i was sittin infront of my com, not thinkin about him.
but my ex bf.
omg!
daddy! don scold mi horx.
but he was the one sendin mi sms when he reaches home.
ask mi why i didnt sms him.
hahax.
and is then i noe. we were tgt.
and on the 10th was the first day he met my mum, on the 9th is the first day i saw his sis.
cos went his hse eat his sis curry chicken.
lolx!
see! my memorise gd horx.
hahax.
and for the 1st month, second month, and third months was all honeymoon period.
i stayed at his hse more.
i guess 3 or 4 times a week to 6 days aweek till everyday a week.
lolx.
but of course.
he pick mi up from sembawang mrt station after my work and head back my hse for dinner everynite.
sweet horx.
everybody veri envy worx.
and problems started to come when one day he gave mi attitude and say i tied him by myside.
if i am not wrong, aweek before my bday.
but i finally left his side and went back home stay to repaint my room.
and that time both of us are not workin ler=)
hahax.
and i was quite sick that time.
cos is the period when i'm pregnant but didnt noe=)
lolx.
and my bday came.
had a fun nite in hilltop.
babii was the one footin the bill.
so nice thou we was not workin.
and he was drunk on that nite worx!
hahax.
and then afew days later we had a big quarrel again till i wanted to break up wit him.
i think this was the sec big fights we have.
the first was when i went back my hse to stay myself
and he didnt reali care much about mi.
went up to his hse and wanted to collect my stuff back.
and is the first time i saw his tears.
and gave him a big hug thou.
end up okie lerx lorx.
hahax.
he gave mi a promise that he wanted mi to be his forever that nite and i guess is the time where i am suppose to have my da yi ma! hahax.
not yet la.
and i guess is that nite that our baby is created ba.
hahax.
cos of his promise. i foolishly agreed.
and is not his forever, is mine forever ruin.
we didnt reali have agurement at first when he noes i am pregnant.
was still so sweet to mi and infact he came to my hse to stay wit mi insted of i goin over.
i love him alot.
and agurement starts where i wanted to tell his parent about baby.
cos what i was thinkin was, even if i wanna go for an abortion, his parent have the right to noe their grand children was here by our side before.
since that nite.
i lost him.
not completely.
but mostly.
he lied to mi alot after that.
till now i still didnt wanna mention it to him that i knew it lerx.
made mi wait at his hse for him till nite and come home to put mi in the cold corners.
but i have decided to end our relationship on 20 may 2009.
i stayed at his hse for 3 days till 20th.
and we stopped contactin lerx.
for more then a month.
and is onli once we met outside a yishun safra.
but totally like strangers.
i lied to him then about abortion.
but onli he didnt noe the turth of i wanna to have this baby alone.
his parent helped mi alot too.
and he was totally in his own world.
when i have to eat all sort of medicine.
and even protected him from being scolded by his and my parents.
cos afterall i did tell them, i wanted this baby all by myself.
his mum wanted mi to let him noe the truth and i did.
and slowly our relationship was back to now.
baby becomes our common topics.
he did thx mi for not hatin him.
and apologise alot for what he has done to mi.
i don mind cos i understand he jus cant accept everything in within a few months.
everything happen so fast.
but i swear that my love for him till now wasnt about baby.
i jus love him so much.
a few post earlier.
i have mention i wanna put an end to everything.
and yes, after today i stepped out of his hse.
thou i cried when i hug him jus now in the afternoon.
and i let him talk to baby princess.
smilin and playin wit him.
i actualli wanna tell him i love him.
but afterall i am aware that i am only a toy to him.
no matter how u were to treat mi.
i still love u no matter what.
is so difficult.
so difficult even to think i am soon gonna leave u like strangers.
baby is never our onli topic.
but is the main topic that agurement recently we had.
daddy, i love u.
we both knew that we couldnt be back to what we are before lerx.
but thx for stayin by myside thou.
i noe u didnt wan mi to stay by myside alone so far from home.
but is some where i feel that i could forget u easier.
i will miss u alot.
miss ur smell, miss huggin u.
miss ur smile.
miss u every single thing.
but i am sorry, this time i give up lerx.
this is the end of my blog lerx.
it started off wit u and i will end it wit u too.
thou i couldnt bear.
but is the best way to let us both free from this lock.
today i wanna use the key that onli u have to open up my heart lock.
to let u free out from now on.
thou our promise for 100 yrs,
i needa learn from now on to live without u.
when baby is out baby will still spend time wit u.
but not mi animore.
the happiest part of my life is when i have u by myside.
the best gift i ever receive is u and baby.
daddy, i reali don like to say but gd bye.
so actualli i am movin to bryan apartment in pasir ris on tuesday.
and tml prince will be helpin to move my stuff over to unpack for mi lerx.
i am goin out lerx.
to prince pub.
i noe i will meet sam.
is time i should face him ler ba.
derrick goin back london tml.
and i will be all alone from tuesday on.
frenx meetin mi is abit difficult.
but prince is is willing to be my driver!
hahax.
5 room flat, and i alone.
hahax.
bryan mum say she will ask her maid to go up to help mi do washin every 2 days.
so nice of her.
hao ba.
i may create another new blog soon.
but onli to closer frenx.
let u all noe ba=)
ilu daddy, pls takkaire lots.
baby love u too=)
xuemin
take mi away
Saturday, July 25--10:21:00 PMY
ystd didnt blog. too lazy ler ba=)
hmmm.
nowadays alot of ppl stop bloggin!
jiahui, ivy, iko, pam.
i am a regular of their blog!
hahax.
luckily apple did not stop.
if not i stay at baby daddy hse very borin eh.
online nth for mi to do lerx.
ystd afternoon went to see baby again.
derrick sended mi there=)
and he acc mi in to see baby olso.
to do the spine scannin.
and BABY'S SO CUTE!
can u all imagine, my baby girl is in the position of back facin upwards.
hahax.
and i realise, everytime i go for a scannin.
EVERY doc will give out the sound, tsk!
hahax.
cos baby norti, didnt wanna let the doc scan her.
till now actualli the doc says, is mostly a baby girl.
and i was like "wth, if i start buyin my baby girl things and next month u were to tell mi is a baby boy, what am i goin to do wit my baby girl stuff?"
but of course la.
i ask doc in a polite manner.
but her reply is still "mostly is a baby girl"
okie la.
cant blame them=)
cos my baby norti.
lolx.
i olways will laugh when i hear the docs "tsk....tsk........tsk...., ur baby don wanna let us scan her (whatever)..tsk..."
lolx!
but what a cute baby i have.
hahax.
see who dare to marry her next time!
hahax.
jus like mi so "don care about ppl, i happi can ler"
hahax.
but is not a gd thing either.
which make mi headache about teachin her thing about life.
hahax.
no choice la.
hahax.
derrick was too laughin quietly when he sees baby so norti.
hahax.
but ystd was gd cos, once i go into the room baby is alreadi in that position to let doc scan her spine.
which means i don have to turn around to waitfor her to flip.
or go out walk walk and come back sec time for the scan again.
derrick then receive a call from his daddy and needed him back office to do something.
so i went down to far east to meet apple and braden.
to eat and headed to raffles to collect a small pillow that braden wanted to give to their unborn baby(customise wit baby name on it)
so cute! and we went to city hall to repair apple laptop.
and then i was tired lerx.
went back to daddy hse=)
i didnt had my dinner la, but daddy mum was so gd to packet for mi=)
and i was veiwing about baby girl names lerx.
and when daddy is back, we were both discussin about baby name.
and HE ONLI LIKE MERIS!
he stubborn la!
hahax.
but i reali reali prefer chole.
hahax.
thou i like chole, but still went to view all sort of names from A-K (the rest i will view them after i finish bloggin)
but afterall i saw, daddy onli like meris.
and he was usin his own desktop to see those names too but ended up playin games after 20 mins!
nvm la.
no different.
cos no matter how many names he look through he still wanted meris.
after veiwing to K, i was abit tired lerx.
then went to rest ler.
till today mornin, woke up at the same time wit daddy
cos i needa go to the uncle place to do my leg massage!
derrick pick mi up to acc mi go=)
and was happi to hear him say that my health did improve abit since last saturday=)
then mi and him went for breakfast.
then he send mi back to baby daddy hse lerx.
then eat 2 pieces of small donuts again.
hahax.
then went up to slp ler.
till 1 plus, went downstair to eat.
was chattin wit daddy's family.
daddy sis say the name meris sounds like malays or what so ever name.
hahax.
no nice.
hahax.
so gave suggestion about having a jap name behind the christian name.
i find it insterestin thou=)
hahax.
around 2.30pm i went up rest again.
and slept all the way till 4 plus when daddy mum asked mi over the phone wherede i wanna acc her to cwp to walk walk.
we did went to see baby stuff, some clothes, and bought pans that she wanted long ago.
hahax.
and went to eat, and cold storeage to shop for some gorceries.
then headed back home around 8pm.
went up bath and down again to acc her, and guide her how to use the new iron cum steamer that she bought.
but she has a steamer and a iron seperately at home.
lolx.
till daddy home, and here i am bloggin!
hahax.
hmmm.
ystd nite didnt slept well.
cos weather damn hot! and daddy slept the whole pilllow all by himself.
and i was like so poor thing slpin at the small pillow he put it at my side.
and this mornin he was "so nice" to ask mi.
"why u slp at the small pillow"
lolx!
who pushes mi out of the pillow de worx.
lolx.
hahax.
okie la.
i goin view some more baby name lerx.
donnoe what is wrong wit baby daddy today.
attitude out again.
but don care la.
not my problem.
hahax.
nite everybodi=)
xuemin
hmmm.
nowadays alot of ppl stop bloggin!
jiahui, ivy, iko, pam.
i am a regular of their blog!
hahax.
luckily apple did not stop.
if not i stay at baby daddy hse very borin eh.
online nth for mi to do lerx.
ystd afternoon went to see baby again.
derrick sended mi there=)
and he acc mi in to see baby olso.
to do the spine scannin.
and BABY'S SO CUTE!
can u all imagine, my baby girl is in the position of back facin upwards.
hahax.
and i realise, everytime i go for a scannin.
EVERY doc will give out the sound, tsk!
hahax.
cos baby norti, didnt wanna let the doc scan her.
till now actualli the doc says, is mostly a baby girl.
and i was like "wth, if i start buyin my baby girl things and next month u were to tell mi is a baby boy, what am i goin to do wit my baby girl stuff?"
but of course la.
i ask doc in a polite manner.
but her reply is still "mostly is a baby girl"
okie la.
cant blame them=)
cos my baby norti.
lolx.
i olways will laugh when i hear the docs "tsk....tsk........tsk...., ur baby don wanna let us scan her (whatever)..tsk..."
lolx!
but what a cute baby i have.
hahax.
see who dare to marry her next time!
hahax.
jus like mi so "don care about ppl, i happi can ler"
hahax.
but is not a gd thing either.
which make mi headache about teachin her thing about life.
hahax.
no choice la.
hahax.
derrick was too laughin quietly when he sees baby so norti.
hahax.
but ystd was gd cos, once i go into the room baby is alreadi in that position to let doc scan her spine.
which means i don have to turn around to waitfor her to flip.
or go out walk walk and come back sec time for the scan again.
derrick then receive a call from his daddy and needed him back office to do something.
so i went down to far east to meet apple and braden.
to eat and headed to raffles to collect a small pillow that braden wanted to give to their unborn baby(customise wit baby name on it)
so cute! and we went to city hall to repair apple laptop.
and then i was tired lerx.
went back to daddy hse=)
i didnt had my dinner la, but daddy mum was so gd to packet for mi=)
and i was veiwing about baby girl names lerx.
and when daddy is back, we were both discussin about baby name.
and HE ONLI LIKE MERIS!
he stubborn la!
hahax.
but i reali reali prefer chole.
hahax.
thou i like chole, but still went to view all sort of names from A-K (the rest i will view them after i finish bloggin)
but afterall i saw, daddy onli like meris.
and he was usin his own desktop to see those names too but ended up playin games after 20 mins!
nvm la.
no different.
cos no matter how many names he look through he still wanted meris.
after veiwing to K, i was abit tired lerx.
then went to rest ler.
till today mornin, woke up at the same time wit daddy
cos i needa go to the uncle place to do my leg massage!
derrick pick mi up to acc mi go=)
and was happi to hear him say that my health did improve abit since last saturday=)
then mi and him went for breakfast.
then he send mi back to baby daddy hse lerx.
then eat 2 pieces of small donuts again.
hahax.
then went up to slp ler.
till 1 plus, went downstair to eat.
was chattin wit daddy's family.
daddy sis say the name meris sounds like malays or what so ever name.
hahax.
no nice.
hahax.
so gave suggestion about having a jap name behind the christian name.
i find it insterestin thou=)
hahax.
around 2.30pm i went up rest again.
and slept all the way till 4 plus when daddy mum asked mi over the phone wherede i wanna acc her to cwp to walk walk.
we did went to see baby stuff, some clothes, and bought pans that she wanted long ago.
hahax.
and went to eat, and cold storeage to shop for some gorceries.
then headed back home around 8pm.
went up bath and down again to acc her, and guide her how to use the new iron cum steamer that she bought.
but she has a steamer and a iron seperately at home.
lolx.
till daddy home, and here i am bloggin!
hahax.
hmmm.
ystd nite didnt slept well.
cos weather damn hot! and daddy slept the whole pilllow all by himself.
and i was like so poor thing slpin at the small pillow he put it at my side.
and this mornin he was "so nice" to ask mi.
"why u slp at the small pillow"
lolx!
who pushes mi out of the pillow de worx.
lolx.
hahax.
okie la.
i goin view some more baby name lerx.
donnoe what is wrong wit baby daddy today.
attitude out again.
but don care la.
not my problem.
hahax.
nite everybodi=)
xuemin
take mi away
Friday, July 24--11:13:00 AMY
hahax.
jus eaten breakfast and carefully walk up the stair of baby daddy hse.
donnoe why so many stairs.
lolx.
nobodi is at home now, onli mi and babyprincess.
feel so bored.
usually mornin i can talk wit daddy's mum and dad.
hahax. our normal topic was "backmouthin" their son.
lolx.
hey, i was quite gd okie.
hahax.
ystd before i head out to see baby. i helped baby daddy change the bedsheets!
even thou i am not suppose too la. but carefully did it all by myself okie!
and when daddy is back home he didnt even say thx. jus ask mi
"why u change my bedsheet for mi"
humpx. irritating freak!
ystd was chattin wit a sweet girl at nite on msn.
and of course, we started off very well as frenx.
it seems like maybe youngster has alot of common topics.
okie la!
i admit la, a mummy -to-be.
but i am still a young adult ma.
hahax.
18 yrs old onli.
thou after givin birth, my 19 bday is comin.
lolx.
okie la.
don talk about this lerx.
was on the phone wit derrick ystd.
he wanna send mi to hospital, so sweet of him worx.
apple cant acc mi to hospital lerx.
so sad!
but i jus feel like slpin lots now!
can i don go!
hahax.
baby girl make mummy so inconvinent.
u better lie back upwards to show the doc.
hahax.
she whole nite was makin feel so uncomfortable.
i donnoe why.
and somemore, daddy too.
jus becos wanna let him be more comfortable cos he got to work today.
he pushes mi out of the pillow and have it on his own.
but he was not too bad la.
noe that he will push mi out and gave mi a SMALL PILLOW when he has another big one jus above his bed.
THANKS ALOT DADDY!
lolx.
and whole day daddy move about alot(normally is mi la.)
but i think cos ystd i was reali veri tired so i was damn gd=)
onli around 7plus am today.
i woke up cos urgently needed to use the toliet.
lolx.
actualli wanna go home tonite lerx.
cos i feel that, thou everybody welcome mi here in this hse.
but is still uncomfortable for mi.
ystd daddy mum was talkin to mi when i was abit hungry and headed downstairs for some bread and milo.
hahax.
she say i listen to them alot so she is not so worri about mi.
but onli my health concern.
and she repeatedly told mi to be real careful when i walk up and down the stairs.
cos she fall before.
i am not laughin at her cos i myself a few times olso nearly fall.
so now i walk up the stair veri veri careful.
when baby daddy saw baby scan pic ystd.
he say it wasnt clear, thought got colour de!
omg, nvm la. don blame him.
he is a noob.
hahax.
but throughout all scan i love ystd ones=).
hahax.
i wanted chole as baby princess name. which daddy donnoe how to pronouch
till ystd nite when he return home i was telling him.
but he was smilling to mi and say he will think of baby name!
hahax.
then mi ehx?
lolx.
he sended mi a sms about 15 mins ago.
meris ,jermain, eve, jerlyn, kerin and chinese name to be 宝儿。
he say he like meris.
but i find it okie onli.
hahax. and the rest i don like! i don like my girl name to be under J and K
is common okie! and for the chinese name.
my cousin, her name is bao er too.
hahax.
but i told daddy we could write this down on the list ba.
then can let his dad and mum see olso.
hahax.
ask his sister help us wit the english name.
hahax.
aniway, thx daddy=)
i am bit choosy la for girlgirl.
hahax.
cos i am a girl too=)
wans everything to be prefect for our precious.
hahax.
i goin lie down awhile ler la.
hahax.
then gonna go prepare lerx.
hahax.
i love everything suddenly at this moment.
my mood is so gd today!
xuemin
jus eaten breakfast and carefully walk up the stair of baby daddy hse.
donnoe why so many stairs.
lolx.
nobodi is at home now, onli mi and babyprincess.
feel so bored.
usually mornin i can talk wit daddy's mum and dad.
hahax. our normal topic was "backmouthin" their son.
lolx.
hey, i was quite gd okie.
hahax.
ystd before i head out to see baby. i helped baby daddy change the bedsheets!
even thou i am not suppose too la. but carefully did it all by myself okie!
and when daddy is back home he didnt even say thx. jus ask mi
"why u change my bedsheet for mi"
humpx. irritating freak!
ystd was chattin wit a sweet girl at nite on msn.
and of course, we started off very well as frenx.
it seems like maybe youngster has alot of common topics.
okie la!
i admit la, a mummy -to-be.
but i am still a young adult ma.
hahax.
18 yrs old onli.
thou after givin birth, my 19 bday is comin.
lolx.
okie la.
don talk about this lerx.
was on the phone wit derrick ystd.
he wanna send mi to hospital, so sweet of him worx.
apple cant acc mi to hospital lerx.
so sad!
but i jus feel like slpin lots now!
can i don go!
hahax.
baby girl make mummy so inconvinent.
u better lie back upwards to show the doc.
hahax.
she whole nite was makin feel so uncomfortable.
i donnoe why.
and somemore, daddy too.
jus becos wanna let him be more comfortable cos he got to work today.
he pushes mi out of the pillow and have it on his own.
but he was not too bad la.
noe that he will push mi out and gave mi a SMALL PILLOW when he has another big one jus above his bed.
THANKS ALOT DADDY!
lolx.
and whole day daddy move about alot(normally is mi la.)
but i think cos ystd i was reali veri tired so i was damn gd=)
onli around 7plus am today.
i woke up cos urgently needed to use the toliet.
lolx.
actualli wanna go home tonite lerx.
cos i feel that, thou everybody welcome mi here in this hse.
but is still uncomfortable for mi.
ystd daddy mum was talkin to mi when i was abit hungry and headed downstairs for some bread and milo.
hahax.
she say i listen to them alot so she is not so worri about mi.
but onli my health concern.
and she repeatedly told mi to be real careful when i walk up and down the stairs.
cos she fall before.
i am not laughin at her cos i myself a few times olso nearly fall.
so now i walk up the stair veri veri careful.
when baby daddy saw baby scan pic ystd.
he say it wasnt clear, thought got colour de!
omg, nvm la. don blame him.
he is a noob.
hahax.
but throughout all scan i love ystd ones=).
hahax.
i wanted chole as baby princess name. which daddy donnoe how to pronouch
till ystd nite when he return home i was telling him.
but he was smilling to mi and say he will think of baby name!
hahax.
then mi ehx?
lolx.
he sended mi a sms about 15 mins ago.
meris ,jermain, eve, jerlyn, kerin and chinese name to be 宝儿。
he say he like meris.
but i find it okie onli.
hahax. and the rest i don like! i don like my girl name to be under J and K
is common okie! and for the chinese name.
my cousin, her name is bao er too.
hahax.
but i told daddy we could write this down on the list ba.
then can let his dad and mum see olso.
hahax.
ask his sister help us wit the english name.
hahax.
aniway, thx daddy=)
i am bit choosy la for girlgirl.
hahax.
cos i am a girl too=)
wans everything to be prefect for our precious.
hahax.
i goin lie down awhile ler la.
hahax.
then gonna go prepare lerx.
hahax.
i love everything suddenly at this moment.
my mood is so gd today!
xuemin
take mi away
Thursday, July 23--8:07:00 PMY
my baby girl!
hahax. so happi.
was smilin and laughin throughout the whole scan.
hahax.
see my baby has a sharp nose.
even the doc say, my baby face veri pretty.
but baby olso veri norti.
doc wanna scan her spine.
but she doesn wann lie back face up.
even though mi and baby daddy mum went to have a drink and back to the room again.
baby still not willing.
lolx.
so thx to her, i gotto go down hospital again tml.
my dear princess.
although mummy love u, but don bully mi okie.
hahax.
was veri tired.
after the scan went to consult doc.
and doc say baby is veri healthy=)
and my weight on the 9th july was- 44.1kg
but today my weight was 44.9kg.
okie! is there ani big difference.
lolx.
i am veri tired now, but waitin for baby daddy home to show him baby photo!
and to tell him about scan and even think of baby name.
hahax.
i have alot to do.
but i jus wanna get some rest now.
hahax.
okieokie.
excited for shoppin!
apple wanna go pick pink pink stuff wit mi.
hahax.
she horx.
givin birth few more days lerx.
hahax.
okie la.
i go lie down awhile okie.
slpy.
hahax.
xuemin
hahax. so happi.
was smilin and laughin throughout the whole scan.
hahax.
see my baby has a sharp nose.
even the doc say, my baby face veri pretty.
but baby olso veri norti.
doc wanna scan her spine.
but she doesn wann lie back face up.
even though mi and baby daddy mum went to have a drink and back to the room again.
baby still not willing.
lolx.
so thx to her, i gotto go down hospital again tml.
my dear princess.
although mummy love u, but don bully mi okie.
hahax.
was veri tired.
after the scan went to consult doc.
and doc say baby is veri healthy=)
and my weight on the 9th july was- 44.1kg
but today my weight was 44.9kg.
okie! is there ani big difference.
lolx.
i am veri tired now, but waitin for baby daddy home to show him baby photo!
and to tell him about scan and even think of baby name.
hahax.
i have alot to do.
but i jus wanna get some rest now.
hahax.
okieokie.
excited for shoppin!
apple wanna go pick pink pink stuff wit mi.
hahax.
she horx.
givin birth few more days lerx.
hahax.
okie la.
i go lie down awhile okie.
slpy.
hahax.
xuemin
take mi away
--11:07:00 AMY
jus finish preparing=)
hmmm.
ystd didnt realli slp well.
cos my lil precious veri norti.
baby lie in a donnoe what position inside mi
and my stomach was like one side swollen.
lolx.
norti baby.
hahax.
got mi veri uncomfortable.
goin off to eat wit baby daddy mum.
lolx.
then head to see baby ler!
xueqii sms mi.
lolx.
ask mi to tell her baby sex once i noe.
of course i will.
she is another precious of mine.
i scolded her once in our 18 yrs life becos of baby daddy and made her cry.
sorry babe, i didnt apologise to u yet.
but she understand ba.
no matter what!
i guess today everybody will be veri veri curious of my lil baby sex.
hahax.
i pray hard for a girl.
but still got a strong feeling is a lil devil boy!
like daddy.
lolx.
okieokie.
blog at nite=)
xuemin
hmmm.
ystd didnt realli slp well.
cos my lil precious veri norti.
baby lie in a donnoe what position inside mi
and my stomach was like one side swollen.
lolx.
norti baby.
hahax.
got mi veri uncomfortable.
goin off to eat wit baby daddy mum.
lolx.
then head to see baby ler!
xueqii sms mi.
lolx.
ask mi to tell her baby sex once i noe.
of course i will.
she is another precious of mine.
i scolded her once in our 18 yrs life becos of baby daddy and made her cry.
sorry babe, i didnt apologise to u yet.
but she understand ba.
no matter what!
i guess today everybody will be veri veri curious of my lil baby sex.
hahax.
i pray hard for a girl.
but still got a strong feeling is a lil devil boy!
like daddy.
lolx.
okieokie.
blog at nite=)
xuemin
take mi away
Wednesday, July 22--11:01:00 PMY
i am back! abit tired.
hmmm.
tml baby check up.
lookin forward.
baby this two days damn active de.
hahax.
but daddy wanna feel his kick he stopped.
lolx
i am quite down this few days.
i jus feel abit upset la.
alot of thing i wanna end it nicely.
but is olways another ending.
i olways wonder, when will i start workin hard and put myself first.
but hope i do have a chance ba.
i jus wanna be in my own world wit baby.
i reali wanna be on my own.
but am i capable is still a question.
can anibody tell mi what should i do niehx?
i jus feel quite tired ba.
being a fool/toy.
and i promise this will be my last time.
frenx who noes mi should be able to understand ba.
i am castin out relationship lerx.
cos CHEN XUEMIN don need one.
all i wan is baby by myside.
ppl are tellin mi to be more firm about how should i treat baby daddy now.
and i noe i olways mess my mind up.
but this will be the last time.
when i am back home on sunday.
i promise i will leave this nitemare.
i never ever wanna walk into it again.
i reali mean what i say.
give mi a reason to hate him and yes, i do have.
i am jus wanting both of us could actualli end in a veri nice way.
like mi and sam.
i had plans to go overseas after confinement.
to where i donnoe, but can i leave my lil precious?
i don feel safe leavin him wit daddy.
cos daddy is still so lazy, and he is still doin thing that he likes.
once in a week maybe, i will allow baby to spend time wit him ba.
baby name, i am thinkin about it ler.
and surname?
alot alot of things.
maybe a step at a time la.
i haven bought ani of baby stuff till now.
but i should start buyin lerx.
this is all my plans.
but after all alot of thing is difficult to say like my life.
i don feel well today either.
jus wanna rest alot.
but was woken up by nitemare again.
i had the same nitemare for continueous 4 days.
i dreamt that i had a miscarriage.
and i was cryin and askin baby daddy to leave.
maybe in my dream is something to do wit him ba.
is abit difficult to explain now.
but now. i needa rest ler.
gd nite everybody=)
will be bloggin tml.
to tell everybody baby SEX!
lolx.
baby jayken, mummy love u.
xuemin
take mi away
--6:15:00 PMY
finally can blog ler.
alot of thing happen this few days.
wanna blog but something is wrong wit my blogger!
first of all
ppl u all should visit my links under mommies.
hmmm.
"the dead twins"
is a veri brave mummy who wanna rmb her twins.
i cried when i see her blog.
young age, i noe how unhappi she will be ba.
i am a twins myself but i reali reali alot luckier then her.
although i am a mom to be.
a single mom.
but my baby daddy still in close contact wit mi.
cos of this lil precious we had after a 3 months of being tgt.
thou fast but is not a surprise.
is the very very precious gift that baby daddy left for mi till till end of our relationship.
but the poor girl.
i reali think u are brave darling!
i noe if u have a choice, u never wan them to leave u.
cos when the babies is in u, u get to feel them.
their heartbeat, their lil breathing.
get to feel their kicks.
till now i still cry becos of ur story.
i am lucky to keep my baby wit mi.
even thou in the first place baby daddy doesnt wan mi to have it either.
i am proud to say, i rather leave baby daddy then he askin mi to go for abortion.
and maybe due to my age, jus nice 18.
although havin baby wasnt my dream and wishes for my 18 bday.
but guess what.
i still love my baby.
i am not brave to abort this lil life cos since the day i have baby in mi.
is a risk for mi.
i have a weaker body, which i never knew will be that bad till
abortion or having it, i might not be able to survive to see baby.
but even if that is the case.
i have alreadi walked 5 months myself.
is tough, but is worthy.
i don wanna think of all bad thing that gonna happen on the day baby born.
i jus hope i could live for 1 min to carry baby on my arms before anithing happens to mi.
jus for that min.
every mum is brave. cos is reali not easy.
so i trust u that u will be a great mum in future.
and tell ur children that they have this 2 lil babies siblings before.
they are gonnna be so proud on u=)
never easily trust guys alot now.
cos they don deserve us doin things for them.
so women we should depend more on ourself.
maybe i use to be a prefectionist, so i am so use to this dependence
but i am sure this is the safer way to protect urself darling.
i hope to chat to u=)
cos we can be very gd frenx to talk too.
okies.
xuemin_070323@hotmail.com
add mi=)
secondly,
i had a clean break wit sam.
but this few days i notice myself staring into blank thinkin of him.
what is he doin, is he all rite?
i wanna sms u him.
but i broke his heart.
to let him give up in a less painful ways is to leave him alone.
rite?
but my dear, i misses u.
there will be alot places we will meet each other.
i noe u have been to those places jus to see mi.
but sorry, i am avoiding.
i donnoe what will i say to u
but is best like that ba.
thx for everything u gave mi.
3 yrs back, i reali love u once.
u are a very very nice guy i met.
if i get a sec chance to turn back to 3 yrs ago.
i won give up on u.
thx for lovin mi for 3 yrs.
u olways say, "u deserve to be treated like a princess"
but is onli u are capable of doin everything so willingly for mi.
jiayou my dear.
move on=)
thirdly,
i am sick for this few days.
donnnoe why.
headaches, flu and cough.
a slight fever ystd nite thou i had medicine willingly.
for the sake of my baby, i need to learn to takkaire of myself more.
but i am so weak to move.
didnt tell my mum cos don wan let her worry.
so even at home i am still alone lookin after myself.
i had nose bleeding too.
and is quite serious
but it stops ystd ler.
luckily.
hmmm.
okie.
can i blog later when i am back meetin darlings!
ps: i am now at my baby daddy hse.
tml gonna meet baby!
to see his sex and body.
lolx.
i am lookin forward!!!!
hahax.
blog later=)
xuemin
alot of thing happen this few days.
wanna blog but something is wrong wit my blogger!
first of all
ppl u all should visit my links under mommies.
hmmm.
"the dead twins"
is a veri brave mummy who wanna rmb her twins.
i cried when i see her blog.
young age, i noe how unhappi she will be ba.
i am a twins myself but i reali reali alot luckier then her.
although i am a mom to be.
a single mom.
but my baby daddy still in close contact wit mi.
cos of this lil precious we had after a 3 months of being tgt.
thou fast but is not a surprise.
is the very very precious gift that baby daddy left for mi till till end of our relationship.
but the poor girl.
i reali think u are brave darling!
i noe if u have a choice, u never wan them to leave u.
cos when the babies is in u, u get to feel them.
their heartbeat, their lil breathing.
get to feel their kicks.
till now i still cry becos of ur story.
i am lucky to keep my baby wit mi.
even thou in the first place baby daddy doesnt wan mi to have it either.
i am proud to say, i rather leave baby daddy then he askin mi to go for abortion.
and maybe due to my age, jus nice 18.
although havin baby wasnt my dream and wishes for my 18 bday.
but guess what.
i still love my baby.
i am not brave to abort this lil life cos since the day i have baby in mi.
is a risk for mi.
i have a weaker body, which i never knew will be that bad till
abortion or having it, i might not be able to survive to see baby.
but even if that is the case.
i have alreadi walked 5 months myself.
is tough, but is worthy.
i don wanna think of all bad thing that gonna happen on the day baby born.
i jus hope i could live for 1 min to carry baby on my arms before anithing happens to mi.
jus for that min.
every mum is brave. cos is reali not easy.
so i trust u that u will be a great mum in future.
and tell ur children that they have this 2 lil babies siblings before.
they are gonnna be so proud on u=)
never easily trust guys alot now.
cos they don deserve us doin things for them.
so women we should depend more on ourself.
maybe i use to be a prefectionist, so i am so use to this dependence
but i am sure this is the safer way to protect urself darling.
i hope to chat to u=)
cos we can be very gd frenx to talk too.
okies.
xuemin_070323@hotmail.com
add mi=)
secondly,
i had a clean break wit sam.
but this few days i notice myself staring into blank thinkin of him.
what is he doin, is he all rite?
i wanna sms u him.
but i broke his heart.
to let him give up in a less painful ways is to leave him alone.
rite?
but my dear, i misses u.
there will be alot places we will meet each other.
i noe u have been to those places jus to see mi.
but sorry, i am avoiding.
i donnoe what will i say to u
but is best like that ba.
thx for everything u gave mi.
3 yrs back, i reali love u once.
u are a very very nice guy i met.
if i get a sec chance to turn back to 3 yrs ago.
i won give up on u.
thx for lovin mi for 3 yrs.
u olways say, "u deserve to be treated like a princess"
but is onli u are capable of doin everything so willingly for mi.
jiayou my dear.
move on=)
thirdly,
i am sick for this few days.
donnnoe why.
headaches, flu and cough.
a slight fever ystd nite thou i had medicine willingly.
for the sake of my baby, i need to learn to takkaire of myself more.
but i am so weak to move.
didnt tell my mum cos don wan let her worry.
so even at home i am still alone lookin after myself.
i had nose bleeding too.
and is quite serious
but it stops ystd ler.
luckily.
hmmm.
okie.
can i blog later when i am back meetin darlings!
ps: i am now at my baby daddy hse.
tml gonna meet baby!
to see his sex and body.
lolx.
i am lookin forward!!!!
hahax.
blog later=)
xuemin
take mi away
