jus now in the evening was glad to receive babii sms.

i was havin a bad headache and my stomach hurts quite painful today.

all i need is his concern.

but that doesnt mean he forgiven mi.

i donnoe.

jus feel quite sad now.

jayda and her bf and their another frenx came to my hse suddenly.

but that didnt make mi forget about babii.

i have been thinkin this few days.

if babii reali feel so terrible of mi havin this baby that came in the wrong time.

should i still have it?

i feel that he is moving away from mi ler.

no longer lurve mi as mi.

i donnoe what am i waitin for?

this time reali reali hurts mi alot.

how long am i able to give him to calm down.

i hope he too understand that i am sufferin now too.

how to let him noe i need him.

how to tell him that i wanna give up already.

no point lerx babii.

this few days i was thinkin alot.

about us.

the first time i went to ur hse.

the time we spent.

and the first photo we took.

the day u went up to my hse.

the veri first time u pick mi up at my work place.

our veri veri first month.

the day u brought the rings and the necklaces for us.

u wear it for mi.

the day we prepare and cook dinner tgt.

the day u say u need ur own time.

the first time shouted at mi.

babii i jus wanna tell u.

i am tired already.

my heartaches alot.

we been through quite alot.

and jus a matter of time is nearin our 5 months.

is no longer a happi anniversary for mi and u.

i still respect ur decision as much as before.

i jus need a answer from u.

do u still love mi?

if u say yes i will hld on waiting for u.

but if u say no i noe what i should do.

i am reali sorry for all this.

i shouldnt have mess up ur life.

i am reali sorry.

when u are ready just let mi noe fast.

in case i need to go for the abortion.

is better not to delay further.

is too dangerous by then.

i am ready to listen to u this time round.

i jus don wanna be alone like this waiting.

i have been thinkin alot

i don think we will be happi after our rom in this condition.

i mean when relationship where there is no more love.

i am waiting for ur answer.

hope u could answer mi frankly.

i am sry, reali sry for messing up ur life.

xuemin