fuck fuck fuck!!!
jus leave mi alone.
cant i do what i wan.
cant i be what i wanna be.
why cant i cant!
everybodi lyin to mi that u all say u all love mi.
everybodi lyin to mi.
nobodi noes what i wan.
cos everything u all doin are hurtin mi.
nobodi cares what i want.
nobodi give a damn to mi.
is that what u all call love?
tell mi why should i fake my smile evryday.
tell mi why should i tell myself it doesnt hurt animore.
why should i act like nth happen.
i am onli a women.
i too need ppl to love mi from thier bottom of their heart.
i don wanna be in this home.
i don wanna be in here (their so call protectin mi)
but where should i be.
where can i be?
if i could choose i don wanna fall in love again.
if i could choose i don wanna be a human.
if i could choose i don wanna be out to this world.
if reali i could choose.
why is everything happenin to mi and i am gonna be alone handling.
why is everybodi forcin mi.
why is everybodi hurtin mi!!!
if u all de plan is to force m to hell.
don bring mi out to this world to suffer.
i never ask for anithing.
jus ppl to love and dote mi.
since young.
i was hopin for everybodi to love mi more.
what did i do wrong to deserve all this.
tell mi!
have i not been a gd garlx.
have i not been a gd frenx.
have i fail to be a gd garlx frenx.
tell mi.
i am reali reali not feeling well since ystd.
headache didnt leave mi.
fever came back.
i am sorry i lied.
but i jus wanna do what i wanted.
i noe my condition now i cant afford to be sick
cant afford to drink.
cant afford to stay over night.
cant afford to go out alone.
cos anitime.
anithing happen to mi i will head straight to hospital.
i am too tired.
fever ystd nite is 37.8 degree.
mornin fever gone.
now fever back to 38 degree.
i reali feel so sick.
veri sick.
i don wanna take medicine!
pls, i reali don wan.
i don wanna take them
they are so awful.
nobodi understand.
there is no one by myside.
feelin scare, lonely and useless.
i wanna slp le.
i need some rest now before i reali reali fall.
baby kick mi bitbit today.
but luckily mummi still have u wit mi.
luckily u are wit mi.
xuemin
take mi away
♥xuemin
♥BABY PRINCESS(11.7 WEEKS) 20 MAY 2009
