9_'2'5''25_'6'04 明天和未来；哪一个会先到呢？

Monday, June 8--11:48:00 PMY

i am back home finally today!
went to doc.
and doc say my body is reali reali veri weak.
and i reali gotto be careful of my diet!
but even thou tired.
but still went out to meet ivy awhile.
cos i feel like drinkin bubble tea.
thx babe for accompanyin mi.
i woke her up from her beauty slp.
hahax.
but she afterall is a gd frenx indeed.
i was feelin quite down today.
but manage to fake my smile out today as usual.
i gotto apologise for one thing!
sorry readers!
i lied!
last month on the 25 may 2009.
i have alreadi decided to keep my baby jayken.
but i continue to blog out those lies is becos i wanted to keep it from the guy.
everybodi is helpin mi to keep it a secret.
but i am sorry to lie!
reali reali sorri.
today i was thinkin.
i don have to scare he might come back to take my baby away from mi.
cos afterall baby surname is followin mine.
and everybodi tellin mi that that guy should noe about it.
i have alreadi let him noe.
so i don have to continue my lies!
my baby don have to hide from ppl then=)
but baby now abit tired.
sorry baby.
but he is abit hungry now again.
okie.
since ystd nite.
i realise i am startin to feel hungry easily!
i was waiting for this day to come.
so it shows that baby jayken growin in mi.
gonna visit him on 11 june.
2 more days ba.
hahax.
yea!!!
hahax.
is on the afternoon appointment la.
but i will blog his pic out again!
i needa take blood test on that nite thou.
scare scare.
i alreadi not enough blood le.
doc still wanna take my blood.
hahax.
feel so relieve now.
but for my baby sake.
i will reali reali try my best to get back the healthy mi.
thou is reali hard.
i feel so tired, backachin, flu, cough, headache, baby jayken kickin!
all this.
but for my baby i am workin hard.
i have alot of caring frenx around mi.
although what i need is someone to be by myside.
but everybodi should noe.
xuemin is strong and brave.
i will be a gd single mother.
i will still be a gd frenx.
and i will wanna be a gd wife next time.
but my mr right will be my baby choice.
if he don like the guy.
i am sorry to say no=)
my whole life is sold to baby jayken.
i cant give him a family.
but i can give him all the love xuemin has!
he will be out in dec.
jan his first month and feb will be new yr.
and i may have double place to visit.
cos i need to let his grand dad and mum to be happi too.
i got no fate to be their daughter-in-laws.
but my baby is still their first grand children.
rite?
jus that i noe.
my baby won be able to learn to call daddy.
he might not even be able to stay wit them.
cos he cant leave mi.
back to topic!
hahax.
march will be my 19th bday!!!!
how am i gonna celebrate?
hmmm.
is my baby first time celebratin wit mi.
so i might be bringing him out ba.
see la.
excited le.
think till so far.
my doc jus wan mi concentrate on gettin my health to the right track.
so many many med to eat.
omg!!!!
can anibodi save mi!
apple's baby boy will be out next month!
jiahui's baby girl will be out on aug.
okie.
why is my baby youngest!
hahax.
but never mind la.
i will be attendin both their rom.
and baby first month.
we three pregnant at young age.
but i am sure.
they will be leadin a better life then mi.
i will be envy.
but yrs later i noe it will be my turn le.
hahax.
but they both seems unhappi now thou.
apple- becos of her husband family.
jiahui- becos of her bf.
xuemin- becos of her weak body, don wanna take med!
hahax.
i will be veri brave de.
so u garlx too okie.
apple and jiahui.
we work had tgt to be a mother.
although i will be the last la.
hahax.
wait for mi, i will be in that stage soon.
hahax.
i don wanna see how the process goes, may be veri tough for mi to be alone in this yound age goin through this.
but all i wanna see is the best result, which is my baby jayken.
i needa start buyin baby stuff!!!
hahax.
can i wear a romper for myself.
cos is so cute.
apple gave mi a website to customise baby rompers.
hahax.
i am sure my baby will have the best=)
my baby wil turn out to be my best 19th yr old present.
haixyo.
u all won understand de la.
when u all become a mum urself.
all about baby is what u all will talk about.
but lookin at my stomach compare to apple and jiahui.
omg, when i was in mrt nobodi even let mi have the sit.
even my mum.
she rather she sits down herself then lettin her pregnant daughter sit.
hahax.
i was like "what kinda mum is this!!!!"
hahax.
my family is veri supportative about i havin the baby.
thou is a tough decision.
but they reali wanna see their grand children too.
in my life this is the best present i could give them too.
although i am alone but i noe everybodi is there for mi.
thx to everybodi, i am still holdin on.

aniway, i guess i needa say something about mi and a close frenx that i use to have.
iko, i am sorry i gotto write ur name out.
but i hope u don mind.
i noe is kinda rude for mi to do that.
but i jus wanna say.
thing between u and mi.
i don wanna lie, so i spoke the truth.
u could say u did nth wrong.
but i could say too.
all i wan is to stop lyin.
i don wanna poke myself in the problem between u and him.
but u are the one who wanted mi to speak to him and let him noe what u wanted.
i am sorry to be abit harsh that nite.
but after that nite. if i don treat u as a frenx i guess i will do something like u.
post thing on my blog and let the whole world noes le.
but no matter what i saw in ur blog i still manage to keep real quiet.
cos if i noe if i might do the same thing.
our relationship will be even worst.
rite.
i still view ur blog to update about ur everyday life.
pls update all rite.
i didnt put u out of my life.
so i hope u can jiayou too.
baby first month. i will make sure i send an invitation to u too.
cos u are still my frenx to mi.

xuemin

take mi away