9_'2'5''25_'6'04 明天和未来；哪一个会先到呢？

Sunday, June 28--11:34:00 PMY

i didnt manage to go london.
cos the H1N! is reali so bad in that country
how gd if i could broad the plane wit derrick.
and what i will be now in their time is shoppin!
derrick jus call mi.
he say he himself quite scare too.
if not for work he won even wanna travel.
sorri my dear, i reali wanna go wit u.

today mornin woke up at 9am.
lolx.
met ivy for breakfast!
and we was sittin there talk and talk.
till she convince mi not to head to london.
and shuxian came down to met us.
and we was chattin there till 12 plus.
i went home and took a bath.
and actualli wanna go striaght to my baby daddy hse.
but sam and derrick wanna meet mi.
before derrick will start missin mi for around a month.
and sam was so bad to tease him.
but derrick was so clever to make mi promise to web cam wit him everyday.
lolx.
till 2 plus.
they send mi to my baby daddy hse.
gave derrick a big hug.
i am gonna miss him.
hahax.
he actualli wanted mi to wear the neckleack that he gave mi today rather then my usual one.
but sorry my dear.
u didnt tell mi earlier.
the day when u return i promise i will change okie.

i was at my baby daddy hse then all the way till 5 plus.
i was meetin apple.
but sam was so damn sweet to send mi to cwp.
my "taxi driver"
lolx.
i wanna ask him to join thou.
but to some reason, i understand.
but he told mi that tonite prince hope i could be there in the pub.
i donnoe why.
but it become a mus then.
sam was quite in the rush back home to change and meet a women.
i look at him and joke "i thought u only love mi"
he keep explainin to mi like "omg. pls don get the wrong idea."
lolx.
he didnt tell mi who either.
so jealous.
lolx.
he keep apologising to mi that he cant say.
hahax.
i am jokkin, my dear.
hahax.
but i hope one day he reali will start accepting others.
he is so silly that he promise he will never allow other women to be in his car except mi.
and my qn to him was "u cant dump the garlx alone at there ba"
and he replied "i will pay for her cab fee"
i thought he is jus jokkin and never will do such a ingentlemen thing
and omg! he reali did it.
he and derrick is abit angry about mi wearin heels.
they both are quarreling like for 10 mins becos both of them said the same thing
"pls think of (my son)"
and i was like, how many father does my lil precious have.
they was upset that i went to baby daddy hse.
but sorry, i promise his mum that i will be there as she was so nice to pack my food.
but i knew they was jus jokkin la.
hello! nth better to do arhx.

i ws waiting for apple at cwp.
and a guy came to mi and ask for my number.
he wanted to be frenx wit mi.
but i said to him
"sorry, i am pregnant now"
and he walk away.
lolx.
sms sam and he was so piss.
but surprisingly.
i didnt put on ani make ups today cos i was so lazy.
went to walk walk in kiddy palace wit apple.
hahax.
baby stuff.
and went to yishun for hong kong cafa.
hahax.
after that i am home.
so tired.
but gotto go out soon again.
my dear sam pickin mi up wit his new car.
hahax.
donnoe la.
rich guy olways change cars.
lolx.
i was telling him.
maybe i wouldnt noe.
but different car to pick up different women.
hahax.
he again quickly explain that cos the new car is so nice and blah blah blah.
and he even mention to sell all his car jus becos he wanted mi to believe him.
hahax.
my dear, pls don take it so seriously.
but so fun to talk to him like this.
i love to see him panic.

called ys as he sms mi.
and jus nice i jus reached home.
and he told mi he actualli was in cwp same time as mi.
but we did not meet.
he was wit yx, kl
hahax.
then i blame him for not tellin mi that he reach singapore so early.
hahax.
and he say sorri.
omg, i am onli jokkin la my dears!!!
hahax.
they are so cute.
tml wj leavin to gentin lerx.
and zm joined ys, yx,cork and qr for number ball game.
hahax.

tml i will have to make a trip down to sam office to find lawyer.
he actualli wans mi to go down on tuesday.
but i may not be free thou.
jayda meeting mi.
called him to rearrange a time.
and he say tml.
i saw his sms this morning when i woke up telling mi that the transfer of the money back to bryan's daddy and mummy needs mi to read through.
mood wasnt so gd today.
i miss him thou.
i may needa do something to my own will again.
hahax.
bryan mum still cryin alot when i call her today.
but i promise bryan to take care of u two=)

i wanted my own life.
i wanted to end everthing as soon as possible.
i wanted to move on.
but the onli reason.
i love baby jayken.
give mi abit more time to consider again.
but the risk of this time, is my life and baby.
due to my health.
i am not afraid of death.
but i jus don wan baby to be alone.
but i am still so sufforcating.
i donnoe.
haix.
if i were to continue the rest of the 6month alone like this.
i couldnt take it animore.

i wanna work!
and sam was so cute to offer mi a veri comfortable position in his company.
i jus gotto sit in his office to look at him and acc him and i will get a pay for 5k a month.
lolx.
can u increase my pay if i slp there!
hahax.
nahx.
tupid boy!
i need a job to pass time.
ppl now outside find job so difficult.
and i could get a job for 5k for jus to acc him.
he is hiring ppl now.
but i do not wanna get invovle in his business.
thx my dear for offerin thou.

sam called mi again and say he will be up in my hse for like in 10 mins to pick mi up.
gotto go prepare lerx.
but i am so tired!!!
hahax.
nite everybody=)

xuemin

take mi away