9_'2'5''25_'6'04 明天和未来；哪一个会先到呢？

Friday, June 19--2:56:00 AMY

jus back home.

since evenin was at ardmarity wit apple=)

talk to her alot about babies, her family and my problems.

of cos, some gossip of past thing la.

hahax.

when her husband came.

seeing how her husband so nice to her.

of course, may have some small agurements.

but u noe.

i reali envy them.

no matter what her husband will olways be by her side.

so careful to help her stand or sit down.

so sweet.

hope they stay sweet like this forever.

her baby will be out next month.

and they planning for their rom date.

and i got to know, their anniversary will be on the date of my baby birth date that doc gave.

04.12.08.

so concidence=)

but i somehow hope my baby to be born on 081209=)

hahax.

mi and apple will plan a skool gathering after my baby out.

i have a right person to ask to be partner when apple baby first month=)

when the time comes i will say.

hahax.

i am havin abit problem now.

my younger sis comin back to stay next month.

cos her korkor(bf), goin ns lerx.

donnoe for how long, but my elder sis doesnt wanna share the room wit her.

but i cant let her stay wit mi and my baby in a room ba.

i have plans to move out, but two qn?

1) where?

2) can i afford?

haix.

abit vexed about this now.

i mean i can call my sis not to come home to stay.

dad was veri nice to say he can change his room wit mi

and i could share the room wit qi and long.

but i cant share room wit anibodi cos my baby jayken will cry in the middle of the nite to be feed.

i don understand why the tupid bitch doesnt wanna share room.

make mi feel veri lost now.

frenx was gd to offer mi to stay wit them.

prince, sam, derrick, mike, krist and jess.

but afterall, i don feel gd ba.

thx for all ur offers.

i appreciate them=)

sam noes i wanna be alone handling this matter.

but he was nice to actualli say he is willing to use his name to get a apartment for mi at yishun.

and he could pay for mi first.

but renovation will be a lil gift from him.

i need a hse at yishun cos is veri near my baby daddy hse

i could drop baby at his place when i have thing on like studies, work.

and can pick baby up too.

and is near my hse.

i could travel back home to find my family.

but i don wanna use ppl money to get my own hse.

which i don think i could afford a hse on my own too.

i don know what to do.

i am still so young.

but don wish to add to my parents burden

haix.

needa sort thing out ba.

hopefully can talk to my elder sis.

today finally saw my younger sis after nearly 2 months.

lolx.

not at home but outside.

hahax.

omg!

i look even slimmer then her now.

what ever la.

gonna see her next month lerx.

derrick goin to british soon.

he wanna mi go wit him, but jus that currently i am not reali safe to travel.

cos H1N1

but tioman?

donnoe goin anot niehx.

hahax.

lolx.

derrick is meetin mi for dinner is either tonite or tml nite.

see when i am free.

haben reali plan what to do tml.

but veri fast, a week past lerx.

baby jayken goin 4 months=)

so happi.

he was vei gd today.

i guess he aslp now lerx.

i wanna get the heartbeat listener that apple told mi.

i can listen to baby heart beat and talk to him through a mic.

wanna talk to him, read to him and if can.

i can let his daddy to listen to his heart beat.

he will be happy too ba.

i hope so.

baby jayken wanna talk to him too.

but jus that his daddy so busy wit stuff and workin.

outcasted him lerx.

hahax.

baby is lookin forward for 23 july appointment cos his daddy might be goin.

is not a yes thou, is onli a might.

but hopefully he will go ba.

i still didnt manage to find out which hospital he is stayin at.

his parents didnt wanna tel mi either.

i will find him de.

mus be some private hospital ba.

but i am sure, give mi 2 more days.

he didnt call mi today either.

but okie la.

i am goin slp lerx.

so tired.

baby jayken slept quite early today.

hahax.

he is my norti precious lil baby.

another thing i am thinkin of now.

baby surname.

under his father name, of course i will put in his daddy name.

but surname?

i wanted him to have his surname wit mi

but his daddy family deserve to have too.

afterall they did lots for baby.

if anithing might happen to mi.

at least baby still have his daddy.

cos as everybodi noes.

my body is still veri weak.

so i don even wanna think about the chances of surviving during the birth.

but if i could get my body well.

which i am still gd, taking medicine from chinese doc and med from hospital.

but the surname?

haix.

another problem.

headache la.

better don think so much ba.

is not gd for mi to think so much to affect my mood.

cos baby jayken will be affected too.

okieokie.

i goin slp lerx.

nitex=)

xuemin

take mi away