jus reach home.
didnt realise time passes so fast.
realise i didnt blog for 3 days.
again, when i misses him.
my tears rolled down thou.
his funeral over ler.
but i could onli stand outside and a distance away.
i noe he hope to see mi too.
jus had alot of sorry to tell him.
i didnt attend his family meeting.
is about his will.
but receive his lawyer calls.
he left an amount of 200k for mi.
but of course, i didnt take it.
his money belongs to his family.
he wanted to leave his apartment to mi.
but i still not 21 and above.
silly him.
his mum hopes i could have all.
but i told her, all i wanted is his family to be happi.
and all i have from him is the memories he has given to mi.
rest in peace bryan=)
i promise i will meet u when my baby out.
i will be all rite and i will visit u.
i promise i will help take care of ur daddy and mummy.
xuemin will never break her promise.
pls bless mi and my baby.
but still u have not right to decide who i should be wit.
cos u broke ur promise to mi.
but i don blame u, i noe u suffer alot.
u are very brave to fight against brain cancer.
i will learn from u.
i will be brave too.
so nice to have u to be my best frenx.
i miss u.
is so upset, i lose a best frenx out of a sudden.
thx to sam, prince, derrick and mike, kl, ys and apple.
they called,meet and msn to chat wit mi and comfort mi thou i wasnt in the mood to chat to them.
veri sweet of them.
i noe that no matter how i were to cry,
i could never have him back by myside.
but i will make sure.
i will treasure every of my frenx more.
cos i don wanna lose animore gd frenx lerx.
he too wanted mi to move on.
and one thing for sure.
baby jayken needs mummy back.
i am still gd.
didnt skip meals.
but appetite quite small thou.
baby jayken is so gd this few days.
maybe he noes that mummy is unhappi.
H1N1 disease spread veri fast.
i cant have the injection to prevent the disease.
so is reali dangerous for mi to go overseas.
many ppl had asked mi not to go.
especially to european countries.
the plane will be leavin on the 30th june at around 1am.
should i?
still considerin niehx.
i am gonna rest lerx.
baby slpin lerx.
omg, now mornin lerx.
i will blog again later ba.
nites=)
and happi 4 months and 3 days old to baby jayken=)
mummy love u.
xuemin
take mi away
♥xuemin
♥BABY PRINCESS(11.7 WEEKS) 20 MAY 2009
