this may be my veri last blog before i leave to london.

met wj,yxiang,ys,kl,and zm today.

maybe the last time till 22nd july to meet them.

i will miss them too.

we watch transformers today.

and went home lerx.

i am not gonna go out today lerx.

cos tml i will wait up very early.

to visit my baby daddy's parents=)

cos i will miss them.

and i will head to the shoppin centre near his hse to do my padicure.

and i will meet apple tml to acc her to see some baby stuff and i will get some of my stuff too.

i have quite alot of thing to get for the london trips.

and soon after i finish meetin apple.

head home and bath, and sam, prince, mike sebes and some of our frenx will have a farewell party for mi and derrick.

i noe i will miss everybody.

my family.

i jus feel that i will be goin for a long period thou.

pls everybody, promise mi.

during this period of time, takkaire of urself.

and i hope someone could help to look after my daddy, mummy and brother as well.

msn mi to update about my family to mi.

miss mi then webcam wit mi.

when i didnt online, send mi emails.

i noe that H1N1 is spreading like hell.

but i promise no matter what, i will make sure baby is fine.

is there aniways for mi not to miss home so much like lil garlx now.

my room, my bed, and my things.

of course i didnt forget to pack marley wit mi.

and my medicines.

i am reali givin up lerx.

so this trip is to clear my mind and see how and what i am gonna do for my future.

whoever love and noe mi.

i am no longer mi lerx.

i got no more choice to be who i wanna be.

i too wanna be dote and love by a guy i reali love.

i too wanna be selfish to walk my own life.

is hurting mi so much that i no longer feel the pain.

this is the best i could do.

all i could say is a sorry.

i guess this all will end when i am back from london.

i will stop all my nonesence, i will stop all my immature, i will stop all my crying.

if not for baby, i will never wanna have anithing to do wit his daddy animore.

it puts an end to everything too.

i will face the whole world alone again and tell them, i am sorry.

this is all i can do.

hope everybodi understand too.

no promise i will change my mind.

but for baby i will consider over and over again.

no matter what, i noe i will be wit baby.

even if there is a risk for mi for anithing

wherever baby is, mummy will follow u.

mummy love u alot alot and alot.

gd nite baby,

farewell everybodi.

xuemin