9_'2'5''25_'6'04 明天和未来；哪一个会先到呢？

Monday, July 13--4:07:00 PMY

wasnt in my best mood thou.
ystd nite before i slp.
called bf and had a veri bad quarrel.
3yrs, we never had a quarrel.
i noe i am in the fault.
i am sorry.
but to what u ask mi, i reali don noe how to answer u.
becos i admit u reali noe mi well.
our agurement started becos he suddenly become so unreasonable.
i tried to give in at first.
but he was still so angry about mi out wit frenx and didnt let him noe till he called mi.
i was askin him, why cant we be like how we use to be.
and his reply wake mi up.
cos i am his gf now.
yes, i noe.
but pls don expect mi to be that kinda gf that report to u every single thing i am doin.
u should noe mi well.
the more u wanna tie mi the more i will run away.
yes, i noe i noe and i noe.
u are freakin stressin mi.
i told u in the first place.
is not easy for mi to have an relationship now.
but pls don think u will ever gonna change my mind in anithing now.
i told u i am sorry to treat u so cold.
i am sorry to neglect ur feelings.
but don suffocate mi pls.
u say u don wan ani quarrel between us.
but why are we havin such a bad agurement early in the mornin!
who is the one ridiculously says u jus wanna be wit mi even if i say i need more time.
pls bf, i am so sick and tired of agurement and quarrels.
never ever i expect u to be the one too.
tml is ur bday.
and u said that ur best present u alreadi receive.
but are u happi.
am i happi?
am i wrong askin u make a decision?
don come tellin mi that u don expect all this to happen.
waiting for mi for 3 yrs plus, jus wanna wait till the day i can accept u.
but now we are tgt, don u think u wasted a 3 yrs for nth on mi.
u can wait a few yrs more but do u think i am still the best choice for u?
when u were to meet another women that is willing to do anithing for u.
listen to u and never so stubborn.
do u think u still love mi even if u spended 3 yrs on mi?
to mi, love aint a game animore.
is a gamble to my life.
jus like my baby jayken in mi.
i jus wanna use my whole life to protect the ones i reali love.
i have alot of guys frenx.
if u cant accept mi and my frenx as what they are then i won be bother about u.
cos frenx are important to mi.
i use to give up all my frenx becos of a guy.
and now i won make the same mistake twice.
i don blame u to be so anti social.
but i will blame u if u ever try to stop mi hanging out wit all my frenx.
cos u will never gonna be the one to change my mind.
and very very nonesence thing is u are actualli piss off of a dead person.
bryan is alreadi not in this world ler.
and he is a very gd frenx to mi.
how can u say all this nasty words on him.
am i wrong to scold u for being so immature now.
i olways thought u are different from others.
cos 21 yrs old but u gotto handle the whole company by urself.
i guess u are reali mature enough to start ur own family ler.
but is reali reali ridiculous when u start spouting nonesence
u don tell mi how insecure u feel being wit mi.
i am olways like this.
but if u trust mi u should noe when i have a bf, i will never gonna care about other guys.
i may have alot of guys frenx but i will never gonna do anithing to betray u.
even derrick noes this.
once i have a bf, i won even glance at hunks.
u still say u are my bf!
oh pls.
what do u wan mi to do, my dear.
i am so sick and tired of all this lerx.
can u stop?
how gd we may look, how sweet we may be infront of others tml.
u should noe, after today morning.
don expect much from mi lerx.
i am not gonna be the one cryin to u askin u to stay by myside.
i am not gonna be the one to pls u not to leave mi.
i am better off alone!
i didnt slp the whole morning thou.
so pls, don spam mi sms and phone calls.
i am not into pickin up and replying ur msg till i feel alot better later on.
i am havin a headache.
so plsplspls.
don irritate mi for now

mornin i met derrick for breakfast as i couldnt slp well.
and nearly fainted today again.
maybe cos alot of days i not enough slp lerx.
but till now still feel unwell.
donnoe why niehx.
derrick was shock and worry.
but i told him is normal la.
for my case la.
lolx.
i told him i don wan sam to be the one fetchin mi to pub today later at nite.
then he say he will then.
tml is a veri busy day for us.
i too gotto wake up early and head to sam hse.
donnoe do what olso.
but i might jus slp in his hse first.
mike and sebes will be bringin their own girls.
donnoe who again la.
haixyo.
but prince and derrick will be a gay thou.
lolx.
i noe even if i am angry wit sam tml.
i still gotto wait till tml party over.
cos 6.5k ppl will be there to celebrate for him.
mummy told mi jus on the party she spended $650, 000.
and sam bday present is his new care that cos more then a million.
percious ma.
mummy intend to change my 7 inches heels to flats.
but the dress i am wearing suits better wit heels niehx.
she is scare that i might trip over things again.
lolx.
mummy! stop bringing the incident up la.
maybe change to a lower heels ba.
krist called mi to ask what am i wearing for tml nite party.
she horx.
olways wanna fight wit mi over "the most attractive person" on parties!
i told her is a summer design dior pink dress imported from paris.
she noe she lost.
cos she is wearin a customize dress.
but black.
hahax.
colour alreadi lose ler la.
hahax.
but our "fight" is a friendly one la.
so don worry we will end up havin cats fight.
lolx.
donnoe krist bbay will be comin anot.
and i heard that mummy invited one of company's partner CEO daughter.
lolx.
is the one who wanna woo sam before de.
actualli tml mi and sam will be handlin alot of this type of women ba.
cos firstly, he is rich and he is a hunk ma.
all the bosses will introduce their daughter to him.
but alot of them has alreadi given up lerx.
i have met a few thou.
but,is kinda funny la.
lolx.
donnoe what funny thing will happen again tml.
but once sam told mi that in him i will olways be the lead person.
but derrick told mi that too.
lolx.
okies, guys- pls fight among urself then.
hahax.
i am still piss off by sam la!!!
all the "face" that u need i will give it to u de.
but as i mention, don expect much!

and noe about baby jayken!
i am thinkin about changing his chinese name niehx.
this one still needa discuss wit baby daddy ba.
and baby has been so active ystd and today.
i feel his kick like nobody business.
hahax.
hungry so easily!
mummy don wanna grow fat fat horx.
if not ask ur daddy pay for my slimming programme.
hahax.
which i think he will jus tell mi "not my problem"
but he gotto think.
is becos of baby horx!!!
hahax.
see like, guys will never understand us women suffering de.
hahax.
10 more days to see baby jayken lorx!!
excited!!!
but still needa think wan do the 3D ultrasound scan or the normal one.
hahax
headache la.
lolx.
if i were to ask baby daddy olso useless la.
he will onli say, i happi can ler lorx.
but i guess 3D scan better rite.
hahax.
i am reali tired now la.
before jiahui wanna meet mi i goin lie down awhile.
but first, baby hungry again la.
gotto satify baby then myself ma.
if not i cant rest de.
lolx.
blog when i am free at nite later ba=)

i miss u.

xuemin

take mi away