ystd up on a cruise..
hope that u would by my side.
i think i might be happier wit u beside mi..
i am olways question be ppl.
"why u wanna be a single mum"
haix.
i have my pride and so do i have to keep alil of urs.
not marryin is my choice at first.
but end up after dion is out it becomes ur choice.
i am not a gd gf, neither can i be a gd wife.
is that the reaso why u choice to leave mi?
i was thinkin about all the promises we had.
and i rmb that u said u will go a trip wit mi.
but i reject ur offer.
haix.
but is reali over.
i reali hope u are doin well.
sometimes when i am lookin at dion, i was thinkin.
is baby boy too so adorable?
will he too look like u?
or boy will look more like mi!
hahax.
have u ever been thinkin about him?
he is now fine.
at least abit peaceful now.
i have been burnin him sweet and toys.
i will constantly talk to baby boy to make sure he noes i love him.
did u?
i noe u won.
is okie.
u noe it hurts mi when baby boy left us.
why would u choose to be another one to leave mi.
i don longed for u.
but i still miss u..
i cant say. not even to my twin sis.
becos this is my choice.
when u are my world, i live for u.
when loving u, u are still my world.
i reali reali reali wanna go back to how we are thou i noe is so impossible.
jus give mi a small chance to dream in my own world.

dion had her 3rd dose jab today and nurse ask mi to allow her to take hepatitis B tgt.
seeing her cry i can onli keep kissing her.
but our daughter so brave.
she was smiling 15 mins later!
hahax.
nurse said that her height and weight consider abit low compare wit the 6 months chart.
but she is not under height or under weight.
her head circumference is 42cm.
have u notice how big our princess is?
i am so contradicting now..
becos my heart tells mi not to go down to the family court on sat.
is it becos i still love u?
haix.
idk.
hope u are fine:)

xuemin